I'm losing...

I got this feeling, and it really mess me up.
I think I'm losing, losing everything that I had and it's dissapearing slowly and left a marks which is hurtin me deep inside me heart.

I'm losing my focus, eventhough I'm sitting at a place that I have to give my focus on it everyday.
I'm losing my Friends, eventhough they always sit around me.
I'm losing my soul, always down and down and down....
I'm losing my happiness, It's difficult to smile again and make other people to smile with me without being a hypocrite
I'm losing my time, I hate when this feeling disturb me cause its wasting my time and it effect my life.
I'm losing my apetite, I feel unhealthy and always blackout for all sudden
I'm losing my mind, always hoping for death
I'm losing myself, Until now, I dont know who the hell I am
I'm losing my future, I already see the darkness of my future and it is so dark even a sun cant make it bright.
I'm losing love, I feel empty and sadness all around me
I'm losing supports, It makes me blind
I'm losing hope, I'm not setting any plan for anything cause I know how will it end
I'm losing so many things, and keep saying I'm regretting for becoming me.

What is happening to me? I want my old me back, Wake up, Wake me up, I'm lost. Please Harith what happen. I'm tired for being like this, it's suffocating. I've lost almost everything that I have so please stop it. It's hurtin me bad. I dunno what am I typing here, I want calmness, I dont want this stupid feeling that stealing almost everything that I have. Arrgghhh.. I hope when I write it, it will cool it down a little bit. I hope.

I'm tagged

1) Adakah anda rasa anda hot?
Hot ke, test sikit psssssssss......

2) Upload wallpaper PC/laptop yang anda guna sekarang!

satu keje nak mengupload benda yang ada kat laptop semua orang haha.. Windows 7 default theme

3) Cerita pasal gambar

Gambar itu wujud apabila Win7 diinstall (boleh ke camni??)

4) Bila kali terakhir anda makan pizza

sebelum abah gi Paris, kenapa tanya?? nak join hehe...

5) Lagu terakhir anda dengar

Lagu yang keluar dari mulut sendiri haha...

6) Apa yang anda buat selain menyelesaikan tag ini?

- sy sedang berYM ngan skandalicious saya

-sy sedang mengantuk yang amat sangat

-sy sedang berhadapan dengan Lenovo saya haha...

7) Selain nama sendiri, anda dipanggil nama apa?

saya budak skem, takde nama samaran haha...

8) Tag 8 org..

saya tak berjaya menjawab soalan ini dengan baik haha...

1) Tee Ngin Rui

2) Iz

3) Khairah Nazurah

4) Rini Ariyanti

5) Azri

6) Redzuan

7) Atierah

8)Nabil Iqbal

9) Siapakah orang num 1 kepada anda?
Kawan meroyan saya haha.. she's chinese and love Lee Min Ho


10)Katakan sesuatu mengenai orang num 5.

Pegi jumpa doktor la, nak tunggu nazak ke baru nak jumpa

11) Num 3 ada hubungan dengan siapa?

My scandolicious muahaha.... Sila jangan jeles

12) Bagaimana pula dengan num 4?

Naib Presiden MPPPU hohoho... dun play3 ha...

13) Pesanan buat orang num 6.

Be strong and dont ponteng2 haha..

15) Adakah num 7 n 8 mempunyai persamaan.

Semoga berkekalan hingga ke akhirnya...

16) Berikan 5 yang anda tahu mngenai org yg tag anda.

Khairah Nazurah atau Lady K,

Ketinggian dirahsiakan,

Tahap kecomelan : so cute,

Bijak n Smart,

Jangan tegur kalau dia hampir berjaya habiskan nasinya jika lauk sudah habis,

Manusia yang "Ikut resmi padi, makin berisi makin tunduk"

17) Persamaan antara kambing dan lembu.

Kenapa perlu disamakan lembu dengan kambing? Kenapa tak samakan dengan Bab1 hahaha...

18) Perasaan anda buat tag nih.
Ini adalah tag pertama yang pernah saya kena kalau saya tidak salah


19) Adakah anda tahu si Rizman tu sengal?

Saya rasa memang rizman adalah manusia yang sengal kerana kalau dalam drama melayu, Nama rizman untuk orang jahat hahaha....

20) Gay or les?

I'm so gay(happy)  hahaha....

MUET - Part one & Part two (It's over)

Everybody keep asking me how was your MUET in 24/04/2010, I'm done with my MUET test for Reading, Writing, and Listening. So dont u ever ask about it again hahaha...

Next test is speaking and will be held on 11/05/2010. Wish me luck y'all...

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Update for Part two

I'm so relieved that MUET was no more (for now, maybe)
My group got an easy question but me and the others was so nervous about it and the talk was a disaster.
We finish our conversation in short time, even the examiner was so tak puas hati because of leaving early. Some says, the examiners was unhappy because at starts everybody was doing fine but when it comes to group conversation it turns into disaster. Everyone extremely nervous and had a long pause.
After finishing our Speaking test, khaira ask everyone to gather all d'Pioneerz and we had some snacks that been sponsored by khaira haha...
It's Maggi time, yeah we had Maggi Kari for snack and we all had some quality time together. It's a memory to remember.

Maggi uniting people :P

Just upload this picture only, cant upload the others cause need their permission first hehe...